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wonderland

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I wonder if I've been changed in the night. Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!
Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland


So here we are.
Right back where we started.
Separate lives- no point of intersection.
In the near future.
Perhaps never to again.



Still, let's humor the king and everyone interested and begin from the beginning... I'll go on until the end...

Which is the beginning.
"And I never saw you coming; And I'll never ( never) be the same" State of Grace, Taylor Swift

So, yes, the beginning. (Beginnings are difficult as you know)
I remember our first conversation. The one where I had no choice but to talk to you. You stunned me with facts and basketball stories shattering the mad impression you left me with. One Tuesday in February. And I looked at you. Saw your blue eyes f…

Plain Palais

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We rode the tram together after...
-you picked  me up from an artsy space loaned for a weekend stay,  -we walked to a weekend market  and traded stories  -me beaming inspite of the grey late winter/early spring weather
because you were smiling back at me.




We rode the tram together but before that,  you tried to take me to Jules Vern Cafe 
- to impress me only that it was closed on Sundays.
Unknowingly, you have already caught me unaware  in a different country  not so long ago  before that almost perfect Sunday.
We rode the tram together  after a  playful morning  my cold hands warmed by yours- knees touching, hands grazing (other body parts). Brunching.  Like two teenagers on their first date.

to heal from an (in)curable malady

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"This is life's nature: that lives and hearts get broken-those of people we love,  those of people we'll never meet.  The world sometimes feels like the waiting room of the emergency ward and that we who are more or less OK for now need to take the tenderest possible care of the more wounded people in the waiting room, until the healer comes.  You sit with people, you bring them juice and graham crackers.  And then you went on vacations, you go off for a while..."  Traveling Mercies, Anne Lamott




Freeze frame.  Pause. Rewind. Repeat.  Forward.  Onward.  Next frame.  Imprints: all that's left. Memories.  Memorized. Pause.  Rewind.  Repeat.  Frozen frames.