Showing posts from July 2, 2012

of dancing magical beings

"It's one of those things that people say, you can't move on until you let go of the past. Letting go is the easy part, it's the moving on that's painful. So sometimes we fight it, try and keep things the same. Things can't stay the same though. At some point, you just have to let go. Move on. Because no matter how painful it is, it's the only way we grow."Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy S08E20: Girl With No Name

On the last day of May, we buried my cousin and going home will never be the same again.

She died on a Thursday and after I heard the news, for a moment, I was again the gawky 5 year old that I once was-meeting her for the first time (that was my first memory of ever meeting her). In that moment and in many moments of my childhood, I wanted her to be not only my older cousin with whom I live with, I wanted her to be my older sister. And true enough for some years now, she was the older sister I never had. She was the older sister I com…